Things are so I dunno, very stupid. I am so tired of all the repeated drama, I'm tired of of all the immaturity, and I'm tired of about 99.9% of the population of my high school. The first nine weeks is already over and I've seen and heard and dealt with more drama than I ever have in an entire academic year. Honestly, I'm just sick of it.

I also don't understand why people who was a friend gradually turns on you, just because they want to hang out with a more "cooler" groups I guess you can say. They then start to back stab you, spread rumors that are not true, and try to humiliate you, but no one listens to you because your group of friends is inferior to another, and I and my friends don't have tons of money or the correct last name in my town. There's just, in my opinion, way too much favoritism within my high school.

I also hate it when they try to act like their better than everyone else, when in reality, they are not as good as their big heads think they are...I got a crash course on that a long time ago, and I guess you just have to wait for the right moment for God to open your eyes...although God seems pretty distant right now.

All these little "groups" within high school society are starting to bother me too. Even though there's the main groups, like "preps" and "losers" there are divisions amongst those, too many for one tiny high school in the middle of nowhere. I love having my group of friends, but I don't like it when groups shut you out just for the fact you don't posses a quality they have....my friends generally get along with most people, but there are a lot that mock us and treat us as inferiors, just because we're who we are.

I know this is a ranting post, but I really need some advice. My life and future seems so bleak now, and it's all because my last name is Hobbs and my moms works in an office and dads mows a golf course...me and my family are not "qualified" enough to be anything...we have to be what others want our lives to be like...all because of the stuff I just typed.

I'm also tired of getting scorned, mocked, and treated like pure !@#$ just because of who I am...I am me, and thats what I want to be...and no one...NO ONE should mess with my personality. Too bad you have to do what everyone else is doing or else your a loser at life and shouldn't go on living. I've already lost count of the numbers of permanent scars left on my soul...

Personally, I've learned to never judge someone until you know them. Sure at first glance you may think their beautiful or butt-ugly, but until you get to know them that could all change, for better or for worse. I'm assuming it's another one of those "hurdles" in life, and I'm afraid I've jumped this hurdle way too many times...soon it will get so high I wont be able to jump it...and thats when my hopes and dreams become distant memories to be laughed and mocked at for years to come...doesn't life just suck sometimes?